missing puzzles = incomplete

aku merindui seseorg, malah aku akui aku sgt2 merinduinya. kerana aku insan biasa, punya rasa sayang dan menyayang dan maw disayangi. malah aku rasa hilang, tanpanya d sisiku.

aku tros hilang dlm emosiku sendri, hanyut dbuai perasaan yg tak terbuang. mengapa aku teramat syg, mngapa tiada yg kusimpan utk syg hanya diriku.mengapa, soalan yg nyata...

aku maw terbang, aku maw lari dr realiti hidup berpasangan. sedangkn Tuhan jadikan makhluk-Nya berpasang-pasangan.dan aku, aku masih tidak mengerti akan rasa syg yg menghimpit diri.apa aku harus troskan utk merinduinya...dan tros merndui???

apa aku harus tros bgini, dihimpit prasaan yg bergulir, senaknya sbuah perasaan.

missing puzzles...life, incomplete...demmit!

light up!

i did believe myself that the best and truth feelings come from inside. We decide wether we wana feel happy, bloomy, great, bad, sad, mad of anything triggered by the outside(people/things happened around us). we sometimes do something out of something without thinking, but use the gut feelings.how many of us, use brain to control anger? how many of us capable of putting smile on face when there is fire in you, or maybe a knot of pit in your heart?

I believe myself that I am an ordinary, too much ordinary girl who easily overwhelmed by own feeling. it is uncontrollable..it is undeniable to just follow ur instinct, display it out loud and you feel happy about it. i view the world, most of the time, ikut perasaan. i feel anything about something, than only i think about it...haha, klu rajin

like playing chess within myself, my king is my brain, my queen is my heart. and of course, my queen moves many many steps than king. now i wonder why a tough mother could deliver 10 babies and feel happy about it? isn't it painful? isn't it put her into unbearable condition? why, why on earth SHE could do the splendid job?this is because the precious gift from God; her heart, her queen. She could do anything with this great, great organ. how about guys? the answer is simple, the king and queen happens to be the other way around. thus, the king the most powerful one would tell the body, avoid the pain, avoid the unbearable condition. many, many times i've seen ill boys couldn't bear the sickness. bcoz they don't have the WARM heart... the strongest shield of every woman...that is why, if guys happen to be the ones who deliver the baby, there would be no overpopulation...there would be only a child in a family...hahah

till then...i better use my king to the fullest for the becoming weeks..presentation, microteaching and quizzes are coming...Do i just need to sit down and wait?na...na...na...i shoud enjoy this weekend...before the sky falls down on me.huhu

starting fresh, forget the past

down
i was down
rise up, rise up girl,
it is over...misremember everything
starting fresh, leave the hope, leave everything behind...LISTEN TO ME, zick! wake up zick!



harus aku
cari pelindung, bentuk cahaya,
jadi kelkatu, cari cahaya, lari dr gelita malam pekat
biar mati
asal kupunya cahaya, dan mati bermandi cahaya
bukan terus likat di malam pekat
bukan tempiaran tanpa tempat
mengundang berat sarat sekeping hitam nyawa layangku
lari
lari dan kabur aku dr kesamaran itu
cari
cari aku cahaya
tenangi jiwa
legakan rasa
nikmat
TERANGNYA CAHAYA

my days

i believe this week is toughest ever...
pity me, having such %&**$#* who always condemn on what i did (plz, plz, plz dun care bout me in that way, 'dosa ko tmbh ka klu aku bgini')
pity me, having #!$*@&^ that pretty nice in being plastic( if u dun care, dun pretend u care)
pity me,
pity me...

STUPID and PATHETIC
i am

hey zick, asal low sgt ni????
sabar, sabar
sabar sparuh dr iman
sabar smpai bila?
smpai bila2

You and I

You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Gotta fight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
Sanctified
You and I
Feels so right
You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
For the rest of our lives

Every night
We're all alone
Every night
My only hope
Is the light that's shining from inside you
'cause you believe in what we are
You believe in what we'll be
Give me strength so I can stand beside you

No truths to confirm
No lies to deny
Too hopeless to care
We're too scared to cry

You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Gotta fight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
Sanctified
You and I
Feels so right
You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
For the rest of our lives

Cast aside
To an angry street
Criticized
For what we believe
If we hide maybe we can make it through this
Is it fair to be thrown away?
Is it fair that we live this way?
Victimized for a life we didn't ask for...

No truths to confirm
No lies to deny
Too hopeless to care
We're too scared to cry

You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Gotta fight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
Sanctified
You and I
Feels so right
You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
For the rest of our lives

love is NOT in the air

strong airflow between us, pretending that am ok..ya, i do
i gotta be strong, gotta be tough, iv gone through worst than this
love is NOT in the air, oh no, am not OK

should i let everything go away just like that..or should i become a saviour?
to be or not to be?

i am confused, i call this crazy kind of love
am not capable of controlling myself
overwhelmed
i am trapped
oh my insane love

SAVE ME