keluhanku malam ini

it is like a dejavu to write the same thing here...to write about things that always running through my head..i don't know why, i don't wana care anymore...i just want to STAY TRUE, don't wanna be PLASTIC...go away, Parasit, go away Plastic...P is such a bad luck letter..haha, what sounds similar with P...yay!

however, O'yeah, it is such a success, at least to find ME inside myself...hikmah yg aku temui, belum atau bakal ku temui, grateful i should to have such an experience...what an experience...it makes me REALLY, really learn....learn something that not NEW...but the lesson, pergh...

petik kata2 rangga, "Dibuat begini, aku suda biasa".

but again,

i wonder why for some people simply could be so cold-hearted, could be so mean, could be so wateva..napa huh?

nnddd if its wrong to be me, to just like this, if its so wrong, whom to be blamed? whom? ah, again, the problem that never solved, undone and left unspoken all through the years...i hate to remember bout it, hate to talk bout it, hate the hard feeling knocking my head all the time...

terkadang, aku x maw lagi bercerita atau expose apa yg aku rasa, apa yg aku pikir pasal dia, pasal KAMI...SERIK is the right word...SAKIT is the possible outcome...

bha, uda la...aku penat begini..penat berperang dgn emosi sendiri...aku sedar aku penuh emosi yet aku sedar walau aku begini aku tetap stay on the ground...at least, i be myself, am myself..n at some time, feel good bout it...sbb aku xkan perna maw menjadi Plastic, atau Parasit..atau apa yg sewaktu dengannya..coz i believe in myself...n i believe no one can be me, no one could..

even more, aku rasa tentunya aku takkan perna survive being other people...juga sekurangnya aku taw yg aku ni bukan jenis yg menyusahkn hidup orang lain.cukup, dan itula aku...

hurm, (keluhan mlm ini)

selamat malam kepada smua...insya-Allah, im getting better...skang pon dh get better lil bit...ni mesti sbb nk paper sociolinguistics...jadi emo tahap gaban...waaaaa, k
wan'an