semoga siap academic exercise ini.ameeen...

i'm doing my job.

lately, i get annoyed easily. why n why? supposedly, i should be positive and accept that people make mistakes.once.twice.thrice and there are cases that they continuously make mistakes. what should i do with these fella?
for each one,
should i punch his head, jumping backtrast him and so on?should a teacher behave like one?

oh ne..no....

i should be patient.teaching needs a lot of patience& passion to stand the tension .

recipe of the day: TOUCH THEM BY HEART, they'll remember you for lifetime.

i am tired, tired of YOU!

School Memoir

with my buddy at skul...bkudaz at canteen, berserius at staffroom...

gona miss moment 8 smkkl

BENAR.

I LOVE MY JOB

I LOVE MY JOB

I LOVE MY JOB


I LOVE MY JOB

YES, I DO

i hate you, i suppose

i should have hate you
i should have forgot you
i know i should
i should not see you
i should not believe in you
yes i should not
i know i should not

should i love you? should i not?
who are you that dare to hurt me this much..
i am ill, now am frail

why u? why u running through my head?
all the time
all night long, all day long
i am ill, now am frail
who are you? how dare you...

delapan haribulan empat dua 0 0 sembilan

saya menyaksikan hari ini penamat. akan kesakitan, akan kelemahan hati seorg insan. saya yakin saya kuat.saya yakin saya akan sempat mengutip kembali sisa2 diri dan berdiri.bukan utk berlawan, tapi utk menjadi kawan. saya sedar saya hampir mati, saya sedar saya ikutkan hati,tp saya manusia, saya insan biasa, punya rasa ingin terbang, punya rasa dan angan yg terlalu melayang-layang!

biarkan hati ini terus terkunci, biarkan
biarkan saja langit mendung menutup dan menyurami bumi
biarkan sahaja
kerana itu suatu keadaan
yg menimbulkn saat mentari yang mencerah itu indah
saat pelangi hadir mampu membuang resah
pasti ya
pahit menjadikan rasa manis itu istimewa
pedas itu membuahkan satu nikmat tak terkata

tiap nikmat bersulamkan pahit dan lelah
tiap sukses lahir dr bersusah-susah bukan dok saja

pasti anda bingung kenapa saya merepek lagi, kerna hari ni saya mengerti
sangat mengerti
saya mulai menghargai tiap nafas ini

menutup tertutup sengaja mengatup

aku merasakan aneh terhadap suatu perasaan membelenggu
seperti berada di dalam kotak kerdil di dalam kotak sederhana di dalam kotak sederhana besar dan kotak yg lg besar
perasaan itu tidak memuncak tp menyengat seperti tebuan mnyengat di mata keningku
berdenyut sakit teramat
kesakitan itu menggigit pedih
aneh
pelik
aku tidak menjerit
dan menahan sakit itu dgn senyuman
dgn tawa
dgn pmisah rasa antara tipu dan nyata
nyata drama class membantu perilaku ku utk lebih berhati2
bukan utk mbuahkn sbuah lakonan seni
tapi membimbing aku kearah lebih berani
bermain dgn ekspresi diri

ibarat tempurung yg dipecahkan oleh katak yg terperangkap berkurun lama
aku BEBAS
lepas dr lemas
akan ku berlari pada SATU yg pasti
mwujudkan ketenangan pada tiap rasaku
biar aku pergi
biar aku lari
biar aku menari
lelah itu pasti terlena
jaga itu pasti tertutup

Jangan ditangisi dunia

#1 Describe 10 things about the person who tag you

1. Kekasih gelapku.ngeh3x
2. She comes out with the idea that "Sleeping can cure"
3. Arab woman look, with the colour contact lens lagi la mjadi2 pdapat ini..hihi
4. Stiasa berkelakuan ayu tp ketawa memecahkn stadium negara
5. Wajib mengalas muka dgn alas2 yg sempurna utk mwujudkn kyakinan yg mantap=)
6. Do as much as she can to please that someone.triangle love la kot;) kekasih gelap get jeles sometimes.keh3
7. Dpt grammar test 14 out of 15.terer wo!
8. Menyanyi dgn kemantapan dan gaya sdiri.kjayaan xdlupakn- menyampaikn lagu imran ajmain-"seribu tahun"
9. Komited dgn janji-janji yg ditampal d dinding dkt katilnya..janji kasih ka 2?;)
10. The most best LISTENER that I have…although quality time ktowg amatla kurang.kekasih gelap la katakn

#2 Describe 10 things about you

1. Tough (emotionally, physically kot) keh3
2. Suka bersukan, Cuma xbkesempatan
3. Simple je appearance kita
4. Always try to force reading, does not work all the time, a lot to catch up~ waaaa
5. Suka mghabiskan masa dgn aktiviti xberpekdah, menyesal kmudian, xreti2 bahasa, wat juga
6. Open talker, open listener.thus, people always misjudge me!
7. Melakukn sesuatu dgn perasaan, jadi klu xde mood, alamat xmjadi la krja itu!
8. Vin diesel perna menjadi kegemaran, dan tetap kegemaran…
9. Family is my priority, aku blaja 6tahun ni pon dedicate utk mak abah tsyg, kakak2 n adik kukasihi
10.Suka menulis apa2 ntah kat blog, wlau dkutuk diapa2kn, silakn.aku sedia terima teguran dan kritikan mbina, kerna, ini>>>>>>>aku

 

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Tidak mudah utk mnyatakan perasaan kita yg sebenar ttg sseorang kita syg, yg kita perna sakiti…tak mudah utk kita membiarkn kelemahan kita dinampak org.tapi, worst thing of all, kita tend utk tros mnyakiti, tros mnjadi hipokrit pada diri sdiri.

Aku percaya, suatu hari, aku juga berbuat perkara yg sama…mjadi hipokrit, menjadi plastic, wlau aku benci, tp hakikat khidupan memaksa manusia melakukan perkara tersebut, dlm sedar atau tidak, sengaja atau tidak sengaja…

Aku gembira, hidup tidak slalu treat aku nicely, hidup tak slalu membuat aku terawang2, aku stiasa jatuh, aku stiasa terlambung, aku gembira aturan hidupku tidak ssempurna orang2 yg aku cemburui…

Kerna,

Ia membuat aku menjadi aku. Karakter aku mgkin berbeza dan susah utk dimengerti. tp percayalah, aku juga manusia biasa.juga punya perahu yg sama utk blayar d lautan yg bergelora.Cuma pelayaranku dikawal oleh caraku yg berbeza, xunik, xmenarik…tp playaranku punya corak yg pelbagai…wlau material kita smua sama..aku percaya, corak abstrak pada perahu layar aku bakal menginjak aku dr menjadi biasa.bukan kerna biasa itu buruk, tp biasa itu buat aku merasa bahawa aku bukan siapa2.sedang aku punya pmikiran yg berbeza dan kmahuan yg memuncak utk mjadi sesuatu.pada Penciptaku.

Mungkin aku diuji, supaya sujudku bertambah khusyuk

Mungkin aku dicaci, utk buat aku ingat bhw Allah Maha Mulia

Mungkin aku disakiti, utk aku ingat neraka yg lebih sengsara

Mungkin aku kabur, supaya aku ingat aku cuma manusia biasa

Melakukn dosa, terlupa, lalai dan leka…………….

Harus aku ingat…dunia tidak indah utk ku, kerna syurga yg menanti adlh jauh lebih nikmat dan suci, melangkaui kenikmatan duniawi….jangan ditangisi dunia!

 

this is how it is

nobody's perfect.i am not.YOU are not.but we have two hands and brains, at least to do something with them.the art of becoming perfect is pretending that you know everything which is unfortunately, you never, ever not.how annoying a person can turn to when he or she pretend that he or she knows about something that is not even familiar or not knowing them at all.poor...poor...s0,please, please...be frank..please, please, don't lie.just be who you are and accept the fact that we are imperfect.that's the main reason on earth why we got to learn.imperfection inspires us to figure about more about things we don't know, and gradually learn.

i hope i can dance

i hope i could dance
i am willing to learn
or relearn
may take some time
before i know
how to dance well
yes,
i want to dance
i hope i can dance

looking for a rain idea

i enjoy the course, eventually...(how sincere i am?!) $&^@@(*#()$#&($#@)$#)@

oh ilham
dtgla
wlau sejenak
singgah di benakku
agarku tahu
agarku mampu
mengarang walau merapu
biar tak indah
biar xcantek atau menarik
tapi penuhi kriteria
agar berjela-jela
oh ilham
datangla
padaku...

Pure, innocent, sinless

I wish, I could go back to those days

how I wish so

sick of hanging on

after all that had happened
i wish
i could smile
i wish
i could breathe
life
could be
smoothier
lovelier
happier
for(n)ever

The letter, unintended

When can I then see you
I've been counting the days
I promise you our secret will be safe
No I just can't continue
Reading through my tears
The beating of the letter is so clear
So clear

It's too late to try and work it out
there's no way to turn this thing around
it's so hard, there in the letter that I've found
I've memorized it line for line
Too bad that letter isn't mine

You wanted me to find it
Never tried to hide it
Running never fades those words are here to stay
I hope you find this letter
Writing you today
These will be the last words that I say

LOVE'S RISK

There is a risk involved in everything.

Every time you share a smile
Every time you shed a tear
You are opening yourself up to hurt.

Some people tread slowly through life,
Avoiding the closeness risk brings,
Side-stepping the things they can't understand...

Turning away from those who care too much,
Those who care stay too long,
Those who hold too tightly.

There is never an easy way to love.

You can not approach it cautiously
It will not wait for you to arm yourself.

It does not care if you turn away
It is everywhere, it is everything.

Love is the greatest of all risks.

It is not reliable, it is not cautious,
It is not sympathetic
It is unprejudiced and unmerciliess.

It strikes the strongest of mind,
And brings them to their knees in one blow.

Even in the best of times, love hurts.

It hurts to need, it hurts to belong,
It hurts to be the other part of someone else,
Without either of your consent.

But, from the moment it overtakes you,
It hurts worse to be all alone.

The risk of love never depletes;
It grows stronger and more dangerous with time.

But, it's in the total surrender of all defense,
That we, no matter weak or strong,

No matter willing or captive,
No matter what, we truly experience love.

Despite the many things love is not,
Outweighing it all are the things that love is.

Love is surrender without a loss.

It is a gift without the cost.

It consumes your every thought & desire,
Every breath you take.

It is the fire that fuels you
To do more than pass through life;

It urges you, instead, to live.

No matter the outcome, having felt love,
You will never be the same.

It may scar your heart & soul
And Leave you only memories of forever.

Or, it may cause every day of your life
To feel like there is no need for tomorrow.

But, love is worth it. It is worth the risk...

For in all of life,

Love is truly the only risk worth taking.

~~ Author Unknown ~~

Jika, Mungkin, Pasti

"Jika Khadijah mampu memiliki penghormatan Junjungan Besar, dan Fatimah Az-Zahra dicintai sepenuhnya oleh Ali kerana Tuhannya, maka seharusnya kudup-kudup bunga zaman ini dihiasi pekerti Aisyah kerana atas dasar inilah mereka diletakkan pada persada penghormatan tertinggi."

Bukan senang seorg perempuan masa kini diletakkan pada suatu tempat yang tinggi, bukan mudah untuk seorg perempuan menembusi dinding kebal seorg lelaki yg taksub mengatakan mereka jauh lebih berpotensi. Maka, haruslah diubah persepsi ini, menepis dakwaan dan sangkaan melulu kumbang2 yg masih daif menilai kecantikan asli bunga2 yg sedang bergemerlapan.

Kemampuan itu terletak pada kesanggupan. Kesanggupan itu terletak pada kemahuan. Kemahuan itu pasti mencari jalannya. Sang kumbang harus lebih matang dan terus memantapkan fikiran, dan bunga2 harus terus bergemerlapan dan ikut berjuang, tanpa mencacatkan antara satu sama lain.

Jadi, pelbagai cara dan dakwa diletakkan sesuai pada tempatnya. Bukan melulu menuding jari, mcari cacat dan cela. Usaha pemantapan harus selari. Berdiri, berlari, kearah yang pasti dan diredhai. Mencintai dan dicintai pasti tidak serumit gumpalan benang, tp selurus tiang yg teguh berdiri atas pasak yg kukuh.

"Cabaran untuk menjadi anak yang paling bermakna dan dalam masa yang sama menyempurnakan seruan daripada pertiwi pasti mampu diatasi.

Tidak ada kusut yang tidak selesai."

you, my unintended

Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you,
Yes i do.
Ill be with you aslong as you want me to,
Until the end of time.
From the day i met you i knew we'd be together.
And now i know i want to be with you forever, i want to marry you and i want to have
your kids.
Thinking can never compare to the feeling of your kisses.

I can say im truely happy till this day.
You make me thank god that i live my life every day.
Theres never been a doubt in my mind that id regret ever having you by my side.
But if the day comes that i have to let you go
I think theres something i should probably let you know,
Enjoyed everday that i spent with you and i will miss you cause im happy that i had
you at all.

Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

missing puzzles = incomplete

aku merindui seseorg, malah aku akui aku sgt2 merinduinya. kerana aku insan biasa, punya rasa sayang dan menyayang dan maw disayangi. malah aku rasa hilang, tanpanya d sisiku.

aku tros hilang dlm emosiku sendri, hanyut dbuai perasaan yg tak terbuang. mengapa aku teramat syg, mngapa tiada yg kusimpan utk syg hanya diriku.mengapa, soalan yg nyata...

aku maw terbang, aku maw lari dr realiti hidup berpasangan. sedangkn Tuhan jadikan makhluk-Nya berpasang-pasangan.dan aku, aku masih tidak mengerti akan rasa syg yg menghimpit diri.apa aku harus troskan utk merinduinya...dan tros merndui???

apa aku harus tros bgini, dihimpit prasaan yg bergulir, senaknya sbuah perasaan.

missing puzzles...life, incomplete...demmit!

light up!

i did believe myself that the best and truth feelings come from inside. We decide wether we wana feel happy, bloomy, great, bad, sad, mad of anything triggered by the outside(people/things happened around us). we sometimes do something out of something without thinking, but use the gut feelings.how many of us, use brain to control anger? how many of us capable of putting smile on face when there is fire in you, or maybe a knot of pit in your heart?

I believe myself that I am an ordinary, too much ordinary girl who easily overwhelmed by own feeling. it is uncontrollable..it is undeniable to just follow ur instinct, display it out loud and you feel happy about it. i view the world, most of the time, ikut perasaan. i feel anything about something, than only i think about it...haha, klu rajin

like playing chess within myself, my king is my brain, my queen is my heart. and of course, my queen moves many many steps than king. now i wonder why a tough mother could deliver 10 babies and feel happy about it? isn't it painful? isn't it put her into unbearable condition? why, why on earth SHE could do the splendid job?this is because the precious gift from God; her heart, her queen. She could do anything with this great, great organ. how about guys? the answer is simple, the king and queen happens to be the other way around. thus, the king the most powerful one would tell the body, avoid the pain, avoid the unbearable condition. many, many times i've seen ill boys couldn't bear the sickness. bcoz they don't have the WARM heart... the strongest shield of every woman...that is why, if guys happen to be the ones who deliver the baby, there would be no overpopulation...there would be only a child in a family...hahah

till then...i better use my king to the fullest for the becoming weeks..presentation, microteaching and quizzes are coming...Do i just need to sit down and wait?na...na...na...i shoud enjoy this weekend...before the sky falls down on me.huhu

starting fresh, forget the past

down
i was down
rise up, rise up girl,
it is over...misremember everything
starting fresh, leave the hope, leave everything behind...LISTEN TO ME, zick! wake up zick!



harus aku
cari pelindung, bentuk cahaya,
jadi kelkatu, cari cahaya, lari dr gelita malam pekat
biar mati
asal kupunya cahaya, dan mati bermandi cahaya
bukan terus likat di malam pekat
bukan tempiaran tanpa tempat
mengundang berat sarat sekeping hitam nyawa layangku
lari
lari dan kabur aku dr kesamaran itu
cari
cari aku cahaya
tenangi jiwa
legakan rasa
nikmat
TERANGNYA CAHAYA

my days

i believe this week is toughest ever...
pity me, having such %&**$#* who always condemn on what i did (plz, plz, plz dun care bout me in that way, 'dosa ko tmbh ka klu aku bgini')
pity me, having #!$*@&^ that pretty nice in being plastic( if u dun care, dun pretend u care)
pity me,
pity me...

STUPID and PATHETIC
i am

hey zick, asal low sgt ni????
sabar, sabar
sabar sparuh dr iman
sabar smpai bila?
smpai bila2

You and I

You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Gotta fight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
Sanctified
You and I
Feels so right
You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
For the rest of our lives

Every night
We're all alone
Every night
My only hope
Is the light that's shining from inside you
'cause you believe in what we are
You believe in what we'll be
Give me strength so I can stand beside you

No truths to confirm
No lies to deny
Too hopeless to care
We're too scared to cry

You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Gotta fight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
Sanctified
You and I
Feels so right
You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
For the rest of our lives

Cast aside
To an angry street
Criticized
For what we believe
If we hide maybe we can make it through this
Is it fair to be thrown away?
Is it fair that we live this way?
Victimized for a life we didn't ask for...

No truths to confirm
No lies to deny
Too hopeless to care
We're too scared to cry

You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Gotta fight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
Sanctified
You and I
Feels so right
You and I
Holding tight
You and I
Side by side
You and I
For the rest of our lives

love is NOT in the air

strong airflow between us, pretending that am ok..ya, i do
i gotta be strong, gotta be tough, iv gone through worst than this
love is NOT in the air, oh no, am not OK

should i let everything go away just like that..or should i become a saviour?
to be or not to be?

i am confused, i call this crazy kind of love
am not capable of controlling myself
overwhelmed
i am trapped
oh my insane love

SAVE ME

hols mood~

yeah2, holiday!...a-week holiday
i am free
free from going to morning classes
free from Shakespearean class (no sonnet, no biblio of him, no non-stop talking of 'her')
also
free from the coldness of INTEC lib
free from the state where i gotta think what to eat, whats the next class

BUT
i am not free from assignment
SLA tutorial happens to be every week
I gotta finish it up b4 wednesday
i dun even bring textbook
haiyak, haiyak

holiday supposed to be holiday
where i can sleep and 'hybernate' and wake up at any hour
damnation
i dont really have my one week holiday

poor zick!

pleasurable moment

kenapa begitu frequent aku mengampai d cni huh?
well...bila xbnyk kita dpt luahkn kt org skeliling kita, kita tend utk menulis, mengamati, self-absorbed...
kita seringkali salahkan org, salahkn diri, salahkn sapa2 yg kdg2 x bkaitan,
dan
hakikatnya...
menulis adlh utk kpuasan diri.titik

act, i hv a very BEST meal of the year td.
perasaan itu mgalahkn dating kali pertama.
btol2 aku hepi sgt, puas sgt.
instant mee, thanx for the companion.
bf aku pon x pena wat aku hepi cmne
instant mee is the best companion
when u know u do NOTHING yet for ur take home test
when u have friends that craving for secret recipe n ur not
when u wake up from nap n u are really, really, damn hungry

again,
instant mee, i love ur companion
so memorable..unforgettable

hepinya.leganya.

am speechless, the laughter, the 'ops', the secret, the choc indulgence. the cendol. oh, the moment. the everything.thanx so much.i feel so hepi~ thanx 2 u my dear friend. at last.at last.aku tdo lena la ni. mesti tdo lena mlm ni.

am fully recharged.so xnk dh down.nk hepi2 je tomorrow. Thanx to Almighty because has rekindled us. please dun take her away. not now.not, never, please.never again.

i need this friend of mine, til death do us part.

p/s i love u babe (in a +ve way of course) hehe

independent thinking huh~

sometimes i find myself in the middle of nowhere...but it doesnt mean that am not exist..i am there, in front of everybody, but making myself invisible...making people having NO heart to care about me...as if i have NONE business to do wif everybody... weird huh?

maybe the life that i live on is totally different. doesnt mean that am SO special, but who u r to expect me putting smile on my face all the time when i have so many, many disastrous events in my life? grateful i am, for everything that make me stronger and maturer...the thing is, people cant see the world through my lens...

the reason why i am so different( in my humble opinion) is bcause the culture, the background i gained al through 23 years...ahax, i am mixed...between east borneo and north peninsular. i am mixed, pattani, jawa and pure malay. i am mixed, between a kind-hearted person and rebellious one...thanx to Laksamana Bentan for his blood...hahaha...

why, why on earth iv been thinking like this.i know my ego would never let go all of the miserable feelings to throw out here, where this beautiful place should be the spot where im supposed to stand for myself, be optimistic of my world around...

crap, again
and today i found out that the manly or boyish characteristic is still with me...i thought i have become a proper lady, with a proper behavior these days...but this particular unlucky guy has triggered something in me that iv neve ever feel in 2-3 years time...omg, i rly wanna punch his head and back kick him &*%...'memajal' btol ini org...dui dogok...

wo, haziqah...what have u done? what do u have in mind?
"well, just being frank"
esok, forgive everyone p/s to the person concerned, i am sorry for the shock i gave

now, here to stop writing. time to have shower, maghrib time is so close...

embun di pagi buta

today i am so liat nk bgun...WHY?
there are no kakak atul n kakak khai at 508( cpt2 la balik, miss u guys oredi)
n so thimpit prasaan with so many assignments to do...

so, as usual, bgun pagi2, must forgive everyone...yes...no one excluded.tgk to do list, pick up the simpler one to do this early morning n do it fast...Q2 tutorial mz zaina, oyeah! DONE

skang nk gv reward to myself, mngadap screen laptop n write something...

act, my stomach so saket that it is a sign of am so hungry, so pedih perut bt sadly am so malas to bgun n bancuh kopi/milo or any drink that can mengenyangkn my perut..(ish2, tragiknya bahasa)

so, aku dok senyap2, menulis lagi

angin pusar tak bikin aku jatuh
malah aku bjalan keras
tujui hala aku mau
bukan cinta atau saat bahagia
tapi saat lalu mengetuk pintu
saat jatuh pula menggamit rasa
di mana aku dan kuatku
di mana hati dan mindaku
raja dan permaisuriku
kini di petak catur bergabung tenaga
mau banteras satu
ego dan keakuanku
nah, aku tidak jatuh
angin pusar tak bikin aku jatuh...

crap! crap! crap!

so skang wana do my laundry, n menyambung other to do things yg masih tertunggak menanti tok disiapkn...

tired.long day

i always have this prob inside my head.dun wanna impress others, instead, being biasa2 jak...bcoz for me, the point of impressing others is close to riak(m'bangga')..wo, dalam2, pedih2...is that true?
however, does 'it'(not impressing lecturer per se) affects our marks and performance in the class??thats the deal...aduss2
so, yesterday is very, very tired day for me..it was the first presentation of the year, of the semester...dun wanna comment on how i did it...BUT

the
conclusion
is

gotta impress the lecturer...gotta zick!

Work, Work, Work..go away!

Td ptg g tgk Outlander kt pyramid...bez la jg.. kpenatan, arrive home at 6, decide wanna do Sonnet 23 for Shakespeare class so...here it is (at least, it has been decided=))
SONNET 23
As an unperfect actor on the stage
Who with his fear is put besides his part,
Or some fierce thing replete with too much rage,
Whose strength's abundance weakens his own heart.
So I, for fear of trust, forget to say
The perfect ceremony of love's rite,
And in mine own love's strength seem to decay,
O'ercharged with burden of mine own love's might.
O, let my books be then the eloquence
And dumb presagers of my speaking breast,
Who plead for love and look for recompense
More than that tongue that more hath more express'd.
O, learn to read what silent love hath writ:
To hear with eyes belongs to love's fine wit.

seminggu ber"dua kosong kosong sembilan"

i am so proud of myself that i could save 'cukup-cukup makan' percent of myself to start the brand new me...or literally to be just whole me

wow, he's married...it was last year, but not even reach a month though...da, like i do rly care(well, act i did) but im ok, yeah...i knw am OK...let bygone, be bygone...hidup mesti tros ma!

back to basic, with continuously heavy assignments, tiring lectures, unstoppable presentations, critical lesson plan bla bla bla...x sgka nex sem dh nk practicum..BERSEDIAKAH aku?berat soklan ne..haha

apa2pon, dlm sminggu ne, aku rasa...

1) aku nk mnta maaf kt smua org...anyone..sapa2 yg tbaca...am SORRY for everything...

2)aku nk blaja maafkn smua org.xnk bdendam wlau dendam yg damai.aku nk rasa nikmat tenang, xnk pk pasal trivia...(so mmg pd sapa2, xkira la salah apa, aku maafkn tmasukla yg pena cucuk paku kt mata aku time kecik2 dlu)

3) aku nk blaja jadi cikgu yg aku kagum...not by imitating her but learn from her style of teaching, not only from her but i want 2 learn from my mistakes, n opcoz my own mistake is also my teacher...

4)read a lot, n a lot...(have to)...kurang sgt aku membaca these few years..apo nk jadi zick??

so, aku rasa...lebaran tahun baru(cewah) ne akan mbawa pelangi kembali kpd aku...atau pendek citernya..akan wat aku bahagia dan dpt bahagiakan smua org...

insya-Allah