too much, too much

i do too much talking. i make too much noise...deep in my heart

having a title myself

in my journey, i met many people, yg menyaketkn, mgembirakn, mejatuhkn, mgajarkn, me- macam2 lagi, being a 22-year old young lady, i am so happy. i am too happy. Allah memberi aku peluang utk tros megenal dunia, dunia yg tidak kekal lama. aku belajar, dan tros blajar mgerti

just have a pemikiran mendalam td, aku mmg suke berfikir, berfkir la suatu ketika dulu mjadi punca utama husairi bengang ngn aku. i enjoy thinking, admit it. n having a conversation with him td, aku rasa lain, rasa janggal, kenapa org yg pena paling amat dkt ngn aku tetiba2 mcm pegawai masyarakat or pgawai polis yg begitu formal....

i cant forget the day husairi bg surprise birthday present last year. wow, aku xsangka, aku hepi giler tp speechless. p/s i really appreciate that husairi. although aku rasa guilty. aku pk bukan2 time 2, takut trima pemberian sgitu mahal. that day, i knw tht u meant so much to me, til nw, only if u know that...

a Sony Ericcson handphone is a big deal. for me, it is.aku terpk cane nk ganti balik, cane nk bayar balik...smua2 la...but now i understand why a handphone, why not a watch or other accessories n why u never ever want me to balas balik smua tu...tp aku kini phm, biarla aku tafsirkan pemikiran aku sdiri

loving is sharing, dats wat u meant right...n i am too innocent to undrstnd tht, i am too innocent to undrstnd how much u love me back then...i am the one who let u go, n let u in the state of getting married...ironically, u hv other gf right after we break-up

regrets, am not. smua yg terjadi dtg dr Dia, Dia Maha Kuasa. Dia Tentukan Sgala..aku sbg hamba harus patuh, akur akn ketentuan-Nya. Read this

'jika ia sebenar-benar cinta, kau lepaskn la, kau biarkanla, jika benar dia milikmu, pasti dia akn kembali kepadamu'

BUT, it doesnt mean that aku masih menunggu atau mengenang. it was decided. my mind controls my heart. n the king of body has decided. no matter wat, no matter wat. all OR nothing. so, it is nothing

for a moment, realize tht the love has just dissapeared~*sigh

happy birthday, young girl~

happy birthday to me

be a good girl, a true muslimah

and the most important is anak solehah

resolution stay the same

but i have changed

throughout the years, i become tougher and tougher

only i can make me cry, no other people...no other trivial

be happy, ok?

life in future...who knows?

bakal2 cikgu, read this

hahaha...mampuih la jejaka d luar sana....

will i end up to be a teacher like this? muahahhaha

or garang like this???mcm c khai jak ni nnt...huhuhu

halfly true, halfly correct

What Zick Means

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

sick of what?

im sick.
sick of assignment.
what should i do?
finish up assignment...

use to have bulan in my life

bulan menjauh. bulan meninggalkn aku. bulan pergi begitu sahaja. genap 2bulan, tapi aku gembira, kerana apa..kerana aku punya bintang2..sentiasa bergemerlapan sekeliling aku. aku gembira.aku gembira dalam duka ku. aku cinta bulan.tp bulan tidak mampu mencintai aku sepertimana bintang2 yg kupunya menyayangiku. mereka sentiasa di sisi. bulan, pergila kamu kpd matahari. pergila kamu mencair di ufuk mentari. aku tidak akan pernah pergi bersamamu. kerana aku maw setia. setia bersama bintang2ku. bintang2, maafkan aku d saat aku kemaruk dgn bulan, aku lupa kesetiaan kamu.aku abaikan kamu. bintang2, aku menyesal. kesalku yg benar2. bintang2ku...

aku sangat berterima kasih...kasihku pada kalian tidakkan terpadam lagi....

fly me to the moon

Your Personality at 35,000 Says...

Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking. You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are. Your gift is having a good eye. You take amazing picture and have the natural talent for most visual arts. You are inspired by what is possible. Real life is often too ordinary for you. It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.

The Personality Test at 35,000 Feet

simple thought, regrets?

mandarin test. frustrated. damnation. hate the feeling. how could i end up like this? how could?

I SHOULD HAVE STUDY MORE, and READ MORE. i should not take things for granted. i should have pushed myself. so that THE SKY IS THE LIMIT. Uwaaaaa.......

now, regrets. no use. whats more important is I SHOULD HAVE BELIEVE IN MYSELF. i should have lessen my self indulgences. too much can kill, i guess. hahaha, is that means that i will be a NERD..hihihi wait n seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee meeeeeee....huhu

perlu ke bgtaw..haha

td aku n rakan-rakan serumah pergi berbuka kt pizza hut.

regrets, shouldnt do anymore

tuang kelas hari ni. creative writing n methodology of reading. tak patut tp saja nk jadi budak nakal jap. tp cuak, ketaq gila takut kena marah. maybe perasaan2 ni wujud sbb aku xbiasa tuang kelas sejak jadi undergraduate ni. xpe, i forgive myself for doing it. i just want to have a rest today n start 'engine' for tomorrow. TOMORROW is the third language punya listening&writing mid-term exam. aku lom ada apa2 ni. zero. can zero be hero tomorrow. Insya-Allah

kol 5 td time sahur aku masak sardine n telur kari. muahahahahahaha.sungguh menakjubkan.first time aku wat telur dadar mix ngn rempah kari, nak try rasa, wat la sendiri. aku heran napa ada sweet flavor dlm telur dadar 2, i expected it to be spicy n not sweety. haha, LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE....

the most sandik sungkai ever had

buka posa hari ni, sedih2...buka posa dgn test.rasa nk makan je answer sheet 2.

fitting the puzzle

Umm,aku xnafikan pic sebelum ni agresif sket..hahah..wat gempaq je kn...saja je 2...aku hargai art2 ni..mana yg berkenan, mana yg kena d hati, aku mmg wat collection.apa2pon,

i am very sorry for those yg misinterpret pic 2.maafkan saya ok?

hari ni aku cm ada quality of self-reliant...aku g library, dok sorg2 muhasabah diri.bnyk aku tertinggal.bnyk aku xulangkaji.aku patutnya rajin kn?aku patutnya sedar diri yg scholarship 2 FOR WHAT... dan paling penting, aku patut sedar yg aku tgh BERJIHAD. kalau la aku ni serajin si perajin dalam kelas seperti saidatul, deirdre, jessica or hanna...KALAULAH..malangnya aku tergolong dlm golongan yg agak pemalas. Mohd azwan perna berkata yg aku ni pemalas...He questioned my#@!&#^(@! aku xsalahkan kau wan, aku mengerti siapa aku, tp setiap manusia punya kelebihan tersendiri kan..."cuma dr kita jak itu brg"...up to us to decide who we want to be, and what we want to do.full stop. ask urself. from within u can answer that. success or fail you want? opcoz many will choose the first one. aci kerat jari la..(again) ngeh2

learning style aku selama ni mmg risky. kdg wat aku jatuh ke lubang paling dalam seperti mana terjadi pada first READING test aku, kadang wat aku berjaya melepasi sasaran aku sendiri yg aku sgt xsgka. samada bergantung pada naseb atau quality study aku.wallahu'alam, aku pon xpasti. tp sedikit sbnyk wat aku insaf atas apa yg terjadi bru2 ni...so, jangan PROCRASTINATE dan jangan STUDY LAST MINUTE DH...mmg to the fullest tp sgt2 overload...too many things to understand and to many words to memorize in one time..tragik2, as a result, not long retention, smuanya gone after seat for the particular paper.

macamanapon aku membebel, sebenarnya...

hari ni aku suka.hari ni aku gembira. ntah kenapa tp aku rasa nk bersiul dan menyanyi...
maybe BETTER IN TIME...alhamdulillah~

makan besau

semalam aku supper LARGE Mc Value Meal..hahaha...dasat kn...supper 2, hihi.sekali sekala

SPICY CHICKEN MCNUGGETS + SPICY MCSHAKER FRIES + MILO..... WoW

wo, nikmat tak terkata...nyummy3..except for Thai Chili Sauce yg insufficient ngn fries yg bnyk

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aku kena get ready la...ada 2 test penting minggu ni, cuak giler.2-2 subjek aku xcover pe lg...

Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan, hanya Kau yang mampu...

good or bad memories?

HUSAIRI,

Aku tak tertarik apa mata pencarianmu atau siapa kamu sebenarnya
Aku hanya ingin tau apa yang kau damba, dan apakah kau berani mengimpikan bertemu dengan idamanmu
Ya, aku tak tertarik berapa usiamu
Aku hanya ingin tau apakah kau berani mengambil risiko setelah terlihat oleh tololnya demi cinta, demi cita-cita, demi petualangan hidup sepenuhnya
Aku sememangnya tak tertarik planet apa yang menempatkanmu, atau tepatnya SIAPA kamu

Aku ingin tau apakah kau telah menyentuh lubuk dukamu sendiri, dan jika kau telah dibutakan oleh pengkhianatan hidup, atau telah menjadi layu dan tertutup karena takut disakiti lagi
Aku ingin tau apakah kau bisa duduk bersama rasa sakit, sakitku atau sakitmu, tanpa mencuba menyembunyikannya, atau memudarkannya atau memperbaikinya
Aku ingin tau apakah kau bisa berada bersama waktu suka, sukaku dan sukamu,
dan jika kau bisa menari denganku dan membiarkan keriangan mengisimu seluruhnya tanpa mengingatkan kita untuk berhati-hati, bersikap realistik, atau mengingatkan batas-batas waktu
Dan aku kira aku tak tertarik apakah cerita yang kau kisahkan itu benar atau tidak

Aku ingin tau apakah kau bisa mengecewakan orang lain agar jujur pada dirimu, dan jika kau dapat menanggung tuduhan itu dan tidak mengkhianati jiwamu sendiri
Aku ingin tau apakah kau bisa setia dan kerana setia buat kupercaya
Aku ingin tau apakah kau dapat melihat keindahan meskipun tidak setiap hari itu elok dan indah,
dan jika kau dapat hidup kerana-Nya dan percaya wujudnya Dia, sentiasa ada untuk kita
Dan, aku ingin tau apakah kau bisa hidup dengan kegagalan, gagalmu dan gagalku dan tetap berdiri di padang yang luas berteriak pada bulan bersinar

Ya, Aku tak tertarik pada tempat tinggalmu, atau akan apa yang kau miliki
Aku ingin tau apakah kau bisa bangkit setelah semalam berduka dan merana, lelah, lemah tak berdaya, dan melakukan apa yang patut dilakukan
Aku tidak tertarik bagaimana kau muncul dalam hidupku
Aku ingin tau apakah kau mau berdiri di tengah api bersamaku dan tidak mundur dalam perjuangan ini
Aku tidak tertarik dimana atau apa atau dengan siapa kau belajar tentang hidup
Aku ingin tau apa yang menjagamu tika kau jatuh
Aku ingin tau apakah kau bisa sendirian hanya dirimu
dan bisa menyukai aku, temanmu di saat hampa...

dan nampaknya kau tidak mampu terus, bersamaku
selamat tinggal dunia KITA, selamat tinggal husairi
dan,
HAZIQAH, let bygones be bygones

mendesak lantas menenangkn saket jiwa

Radiohead Lyrics
High And Dry Lyrics

the song that i am currently listening to...

i say, "heart wrenching vocals, amazing lyrics ..."

"Don't leaveeee me highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......................."

"You'd kill yourself for recognition, you'd kill yourself to never, ever stop...you break another mirror, you're turning into something you are not "

my lips sealed

shopping n haziqah xmampu dipisahkan

having co-curriculum class PAGI2 tadik. insaf sket. ustaz zaki ckp psl imam n kelayakn jadi imam, n a bit cover on tajwid. ish2, bnyk dh benda aku lupa, especially aku lupa yg aku pena jadi baik dulu..hehe. never mind, after class ustaz, WAH, sakan berjalan. pkns je 2-3 rounds. ujan rintik2 tp kitorg REDAH je...kt pkns aku shopping sakan...WAH, duit cm air...

And then, ktorg p PAS...aku carik birthday present tuk adik aku...sian dia, aku xbeli pe lg.kang nangis lak, dh la cengeng cm akak dia.huhu.tiba2 teringat hp yg tersadai xbguna kt bilik, so aku beli bateri baru ganti bateri hp yg hangkang dh 2, beli charger baru, so, adik aku dpt HANDPHONE dr akak yg terchenta la nampaknya, wlaupon x baru tp bole la dia guna kn....eseyh, akak yg baik lak aku ni...ngeh3

ckp pasal shopping..NURUL HAZIQAH DIYANA am a shopaholic person, undeniably, inevitably...uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! few days je dh abez beratus. cane nk save ni, gamaknya aku kena kawen org kaya law...

pasni, aku xnk merayap mana2 dh.nk terperuk kt umah langsaikan utang2,masa2 aku utk wat asgment, kalau otak geliga pandai gila2 xpe gak.ni dh nk masuk 22 ni, ades....caiyok2, aku mesti berusaha.berusaha tangga kejayaan.i still remember this motto kt skul dulu...skang bru aku paham kenapa kena expose ngn positive and motivational kata2 seperti "WHEN THERE IS A WILL, THERE IS A WAY"

sebab tanpa usaha, memang manusia xkn berjaya.aci kerat tangan la..................aku p kerat tangan skang k..hahaha

permulaan titik tengah, atas bawah

this is my very first blog that i have created a long, long time ago. 4 years ago, to be exact. this is a blog where i discover a part of me. i want to continue using it instead of delete it.so, i did few changes. actually i have to start from a to z. already got the knowledge but got to learn back.

all the entries that i wanted to delete, i decided not to. WHY? it shows my cognitive development through the years. seriously $&%!* i have changed. i had changed. from a very childish girl to a maturer one. hahaha...betol atau tidak, terima je la kn...

damnation. i have to let go my past yet currently i have to face the reality. that i am not in the teen world anymore. moving on, i am moving on. i am going to be an educator. educating people. educating the young generation. now educating rita flying in my head. this story teaches me a lot. i like it. though it is quite boring. it makes me realize that how much i sucks in literature...but i am constantly learn. learn from my mistakes and become a grown girl...

ALL people learn from their mistakes. i believe so...better stop #@!&^, i'l continue the story about L.I.T.E.R.A.T.U.R.E later...i have to do my laundry...excuse M.E